I'm so sorry! My father was also an alcoholic, but he's dead now. It must be really hard to have both parents with severe mental illness... I've also had a hard time getting over a break up with the first person I loved. He betrayed me in many ways. I didn't attempt suicide because I thought people would congratulate him on getting rid of me because I was "crazy." But I did become more anorexic and had to go inpatient for it. I hope you can get out of the house and start a new, happier life.