well, I just e-mailed him as I am at work and told him a bit about what I am going through so when I get home he isn't shocked and we can talk. I know he knows something is wrong anyways, so I should just tell him. *sigh* it's just so hard because I don't understand why I am going through all of this right now....it just hit me like a ton of bricks. This depression is weighing on my shoulders and it's so heavy....I just hate it so much.