((( Tree )))
I'm glad you were able to find the courage to share what you did with T. I've heard as well that it's very common for trauma survivors to dissociate. I've had some really bad moments with it, as well as some that I'm not even aware of that T points out to me.
It's hard not to beat ourselves up for something that we feel we should be able to control...I find it embarrassing at times as well. But knowing that I am not alone, and that it happens to others, helps me feel less embarrassed by it. It's not our fault!