Oh Squiggle. You write what's in my mind and heart. Remember, Jazzy started a thread about needing a manual for therapy? I agree we do! My T says a lot of my feelings for her are from a young, hurt part of me. She doesn't call it transference but in reality, a lot of our feelings for our T are for others. Which doesn't make it any easier. Therapy is MEANT to stir up a lot of feelings, and then we can discuss them with our T. That's the goal. But it's weird, I agree. All of these feelings about therapy that we need a forum to discuss them. It's crazy, but I'm glad we have this forum!!!!!