Oh therapy what did i do to deserve this. why can't psychiatrists get it through thier heads that therapy is a safe place for us, and if they don't show up for an appointment we feel abandoned (especially if we have issues in that area ,neglected, and like your trying to give us a hint!

I know she has forgot about me before but she was at least there and we rescheduled later that day but yesterday! i waited 25 minutes (yes i am that kind of person hopefull) and no sign, i am also the person who wont call because i feel like i would be imposing and i am in the wrong somehow. I am also the type where if there is no sign out i won't knock but wait because i am too afraid someone is in there and i will ruin their session

we had a major breakthrough and i finally opened up about a few things and it was wonderful, at the same time when i tell people about that certain subject i feel shame and for opening up and i get mad at them for getting me to talk about it so what i did was schedule the next appointment for a month away to give me time to calm down and regroup (yes it takes that long)

so when she didn't show i thought, great she thinks i'm a horrible person (which i'm sure she doesn't) but the whole coincidence with everything was just too unerving. and basically put me out becasue i don't leave the house much and getting up the courage and mood just to leave took a bit.
so anyway now feeling sad about it i went to the store got some coconut bliss dark chocolate ice cream bars went home layed in bed and watched netflix.

I know most of this probably would have been resolved if i called her, i get nervous when i call people, she has yet to call, i need to just leave a message on her V.M. service and not direct cell phone line. funny thing is she live right down the street from me but we respect our privacy's

I think i'm scared because i'm afraid it's my fault somehow. i know thats probably childhood issues about that somehow but maybe i should have waited longer.