OK, I have no self esteem. Or as one friend put it, 'negative self esteem'' or 'negative confidence''. If your wondering what that means, it means that I have lower then average self esteem. These days I just can't shake the feeling of total self worthlessness(is that even a word?), I just don't feel like IM good at anything. I used to be really into writing but iv even feel worthless at that now. The writing thing really upsets me because for years that was basically the only thing that iv ever felt confident in, but after people people online and my speech teacher started criticizing my not-so-good grammar, I just kind of gave up on writing.
I really feel like IM completely worthless. IM not just exaggerating that. I FEEL COMPLETELY WORTHLESS!. IM not good when it comes to school work, IM ugly , my grammar sucks, I can't do anything right. Here's a list of words that come to mind when I think of myself.

1. Worthless
2.fat
3.disgusting
4. Desperate
5.trash
6.dumbass
7.filthy
8.retreaed

and here's a list of things I find wrong with my appearance.

1.fat stomach
2. Pimply face
2. Really frizzy hair
3.disgusting genitals
4. Huge thighs
5.bad body acne
6.acne scared body
7.fat arms
8. Fat mid section
9.boyish face
10.huge pores.

Disgusting, huh. I don't know what's more disgusting , me or that fact that I can find 19 things wrong with me. So IM asking this, what could I possibly do to feel better about myself. I cannot keep going on thinking this way of myself. If I do, I'll be dead by the time IM 24.