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Originally Posted by poetgirl76
And I relate to this a lot right now.....I thought I had dealt with/resolved some of these sexual thoughts toward my T a few months ago. But then recently, here some of it comes again!
And it must be the manic thing....but today, she was reading my mood journal (which I wrote at midnight the other night and it was a bit on the wild/crazy side anyway) and I was sitting there amused and feeling giggly anyway. Then the sudden random thought came of grabbing her and well...never mind   , but anyway, I thought, oh wow, this is totally NOT how I usually think! What has come over me?! I felt sorta like this >  and this  .....
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OMG! I just peed in my pants reading this!
Laughing so hard I fell off the chair. Why? because I have thought the same thing. Like, "
I wonder what she would do if I grabbed her crotch?"
Then I cannot get that thought out of my mind and I am trying my darndest NOT to look at her crotch!!!
Crap! talk about embarrassing moments in therapy!!!
Mania! I have laughed myself into a super headache. My granddaughter keeps telling me to "Be Quiet, Neenie! You are going to wake my baby up!"
Lord help us all. Isn't therapy a hoot?
I think I need to write a book about all the things I have heard confessed and discussed in here. I wonder if therapists REALLY know what goes on in our minds when we sit with them week after week?
I can assure you that my therapist would be shocked to know that I am thinking about grabbing her crotch, ripping her blouse off, wondering what she looks like naked, questioning if she does this or that when having sex, etc......
Maybe one day I will get up enough guts to ask her? NOT!!! I am sure if I confessed that, she would probably say, "
Can you tell me why you feel that way? How will knowing those things make you feel?
My response:
"Horny!That's how it makes me feel!" (is that against the rules to say that in PC?)