Ashley. .. Back in 2004 I had to be transitioned to a new therapist and for that next 12 months My ex therapist could not be face to face with me, could not answer any of my letters (postal or email) to her, and so on.

That year was the hardest year of my life. If my ex therapist and I hadn't prepared for it ahead of time and I didn't have the friends that I have Honestly I probably wouldn't have made it.

Im sorry your therapist is gone and is not answering your emails. Like someone else mentioned she might not have gotten the email, or like I mentioned She might not by your states mental health laws be able to repond.

Another thing - you said your present therapist wasn't happy that you contacted the ex therapist. How did she find out? If you didn't tell her you did this then the only way she could have known was if the ex therapist contacted her because she wanted the present therapist to know one- that you did that and two -possibly the content of the email was something she was concerned about.

if you didn't tell your new therapist about the email and she found out from your ex therapist then I think maybe that could mean she did answer your email - maybe not directly to you but in the only way that she legally could - by contacting your present therapist. if this is the case you now know how your ex therapist is going to handle contact from you. so where to go from here-

falling apart just to land in the hospital. I agree not the right move.

You can still write to your ex therapist until she tells you different. but if she was the one that told your therapist about the email then your other emails and letters may also be sent to your present therapist. So You might want to decide what type of content you want to send her, depending on if you want the info to be passed to your present therapist.

You can still write to and talk to your ex therapist kind of. When I am missing the therapy side of my past therapist I talk to her into a cassette tape player and close my eyes and pretend I am with her. This I learned years ago and it actually helps me to figure out how to help myself instead of depending on therapists for everything

I also keep a note book specifically for writing to her. Shes not therapist anymore. Here in this state after the one year no contact on the therapist side time frame ends the client therapist relationship is then considered legally and ethically a friendship relationship. So I write in this notebook and then rewrite the friendship stuff into a letter to give to my ex therapist now friend.

and the therapy stuff of my problems and so on? I take care of them on my own or I take them to my present therapist.

My ex therapist no matter how much I want her back therapy wise cannot be my therapist and my present therapist cannot and will not be my friend. Its taken my new therapist and I that full year to get completely comfortable with each other and know each other.

You don't have to jump right in and like and fully trust your new therapist. Most therapists don't expect that. My present therapist did not like that I was writing to my ex therapist. Basically she saw that as a clent in denial of the situation (she didn't realize there was a rule here that allowed therapy relationships to turn over into a friendship relationship, and she didn't know my ex therapist and I had prepared for the transional one year time period), a client that she thought was hurting and shutting her out and wanted to help but didn't know how, and also saw that as my not accepting her as my therapist. She spent that whole year trying to get me to open up to the fact that I had lost "FGH" and to stop denying that loss, and I spent that year repeating to her this rule about therapy relationships that turn into friendship relationship after one year, and crying on my friends shoulders by phone I hate this I want her back bla bla bla.

But the time frame did end and my ex therapist and I are now legally and ethically considered friends and can have contact with each other decided between us.

Check with your state social workers certification and licensing board, When you find out what your states time frame is mark it on a calendar. That helped me get through many rough days.