I can't write any more because I just answered a post left by Lexicon and if my post affected her the way I think then it's better not to write it here...or anywhere for that matter...not because of you lexicon but because what if some one with a similar past reads it and has a bad reaction or worse sends them over the edge...and I should've realized that some people would react badly to it...I am so sorry Lexicon...it was stupid to post it right at the top of the page and if it can be deleted please delete it.