It is a request made at the top of the index of the depression forum for a reason -- this is not the place to post suicidal ideation or feelings. If you're feeling suicidal, go get help NOW. Suicide is nothing that should be taken lightly, it is a serious symptom of depression.

Psych Central has this page about suicidal resources for more help.

Members who continue to post on suicidal topics will receive warnings and may have their membership revoked here if they continue. Please, respect our community standards here, and refrain from posting on suicidal topics in the future. Thank you.

-DocJohn