((Tazmania Tiger)) - you ask some deep and intelligent questions but you don't have to end your life to find the answer. Your username conjures up a strong image in my mind. I'm a mother of a 9 and 13 yr olds and I believe young women need to empower themselves. Don't let that boy do what ever he pleases...you're too valuable to let that happen. Save yourself for someone who truly values you as person, not just a body.

Are you getting help for your depression? If not please do reach out to your parents or a counselor or a trusted adult. The best advice I can give you is, to get help and work on becoming a strong young woman. I made the mistake of not finishing university and I regret it now. You're right, love and sex doesn't get the respect it deserves in todays society...that's all the more reason to be selective. I hope you feel better and get the right help.