((((((((ss)))))))))) I'm sorry that yesterday was a difficult day and that you felt so weary. Tiredness can really do a number on us. I hope you had a restful night last night and that today will be a better one

I too am always surprised how quickly I forget the good days as soon as I start slipping backwards again. It's great that you are reminding yourself that your recovery is real, even if the journey is not linear, but rather has some peaks and valleys. The main thing is that you're moving forwards. I guess we all are really. It's just hard to be mindful of that on the bad days. I know the "trickster" well.......But I think that just knowing the trickster exists is a step forward in itself. And it's my hope that regular meditation will help keep my mind - and all our minds - clearer, so that we can see things as they really are, rather than seeing things through the filter of a particular mood we may be having.

I really hope today is a good day for you ((((((((((((ss))))))))))))))) Wishing you calm and clarity.