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Originally Posted by treehouse
I've had a weird week, but I was afraid to mention it to him. I've been losing a lot of time, not knowing what month/day/season it is...just not here. I don't know why, but I hate telling T that stuff. So I didn't bring it up, even though it was probably 58495702 times more important than the stuff I was chatting about.
He said that my fear of him "judging" comes up a lot - and it DOES - always around this. So I just told him what had been happening. Just opened my mouth and said it. And I asked if I'm his only client that happens to. He didn't really tell me, but he did tell me that it's really common for survivors to find ways to separate themselves from their experiences, because that's how we learned to survive. So.  |
These two things stick out to me because I go through them on a regular basis.
There is always something I should be talking about but avoiding. I always convince myself that it is unimportant or insignificant or my T doesn't want to talk about it. But, as soon as I start thinking those things I know I'm making small things bigger just so I don't talk about the REALLY big things. I end up just shooting the breeze about the weather or whatever, terrifed start the big stuff.
I have a HUGE issue with my T judging me or getting sick of me. He always trys to help me feel better about it or reassure me that he doesn't, but I have a hard time believing him. This makes it so hard to open up about things I wonder how he going to react with.
I'm glad your T sat with you and wanted to take care of you for a bit. Hoping you got to talk to him by now, and you're feeling better today
