I've been in therapy for seven years with the same great T. My therapy has gone through many phases. For the last year, we've been in a fairly disconnected phase. I hate this phase, but I trust that it's a phase. I must have something to learn from things being this way.

My point is that maybe you're just at a particular moment in therapy that will reveal itself to be helpful or necessary. That kind of perspective helps me when I'm in a rough spot with therapy and need to resolve to continue.

The other thought I have is that, growing up is hard to do. After I grow up a little bit (like giving up one fantasy for reality), I push against that growth for a while. Eventually I integrate the growth and know that me and my life are better for it, but at first even positive change is uncomfortable.

I hope you'll stick with it and cut yourself some slack. From all I can tell, you're great at therapy.