O either because I actually really respect and regard her greatly (when I'm not thinking, like happened again this morning, about rolling around with her on the floor of her office or having her demonstrate how to use some of these toys she told me about!
or asking her if she has ever used them! later when I come down from this high I think I'm going to be mortified at myself).....but am actually confounded at the oddity and intensity of these thoughts and need to relieve/release the tension and laughter helps !