Thanks for the kindness and well wishes. Just a quick check in. I am limiting my time on line. Spending as much time as I can outside in the sunshine and practicing mindlessness.

Forgive me for being rather self consumed right now. I will get back to responding to posts again soon. For now I need to limit my thinking and avoid anything that might overstimulate.

I didn't sleep very long last night but it was solid so I am thankful. It is funny because I was so looking forward to a sleep in day. I delayed going to bed. I was getting a lot of spasms and didn't think I would be able to sleep and I didn't want to set my self off with the struggle. I finally collapse into bed around 2:30am. I was looking forward to sleepping until 9 or 10 this morning. As it happened I woke up 10 minutes before the alarm would go off on a weekday. I have been running on 3-5 hours sleep all week, coped with a lot of stressors and thought for sure I was destined for at least 7 or 8 hours. Nope, just under 5 hours again but I felt like I'd had that 8 hour sleep.

I don't think there is much question I am experiencing mixed episodes, rapid cycling... which ever... so all the more reason to ramp up the mindlessness. To keep myself in the quietness as much as possible. To try to moderate the extremes. We will see how well I do when my son comes home from a sleep over. It is always easier to manage my mood swings when I am left alone.

I hope you are all well. I will be back again when I can. Its all good. I am heading outside again before the sun is overtaken by the clouds moving in.