I sometimes have these troubles too, often they are the worst for me in mixed episodes. I take every little thing someone does that isn't 100% positive and feel like it is a sign of hatred and I start crying. I feel like people are always watching me and judging me and thinking I am less than them. I also over-analyze things and give small, insignificant things deeper meaning and also try to come up with as many possibilities as I can for why something happened a certain way. I tend to think I am an evil person and very different from everyone else.

I'm sorry that you are going through this. I often feel like books on bipolar leave out some of my experiences, too.