A am a grown woman who has recently had recurring flashbacks and nightmares of my childhood abuse (severe). I have a professional job which I have maintained for 25 years - and I am very good at what I do.
Problem - lately with the nightmares and flasbacks i am not getting enough sleep (despite heavy meds) and i am beginning to have difficulty at work -- cannot take time off as I just recently had 8 weeks off for surgery.
I have had no contact with my biological mother in almost 30 years -- my foster family is amazing and I have come to rely on them as my family and support team.
My biological mother died yesterday leaving me with a great deal of new anxiety -- sleep is now non-existent and she made me the beneficiary of her life insurance policy and asked that I make and arrange / pay for her funeral plans. (I did)
My brothers who i have not had a relationship with due to fear (they were very very abusive) will be at the funeral and I am terrified of seeing them -- I am going to sit in the back of Church with friends but the mere though of being with 100 miles of them frightens and terrifies me -- I am afraid I am heading myself back into the psych unit (haven't been hospitalized for over 15 years)
Help