thanks for the support. i know that there are people here to listen, its just that i seem to be incapable of any real relationships. every time i meet someone i even remotely care about i just want them to go away. i can't even explain it. its like i've been broken so many times and i've had to put myself back together so many times and there are all these pieces missing and i feel like if i fall again i will break to the point that there just won't be anything left of me, and i can't have that happen. i have two children that i'm trying so hard to be strong for and normal for and the people around me just don't get how hard it is. i'm tired, and it seems like everyone is always asking something of me, where are you going and what are you doing and what do you want and i just want to say i'm just here and i'm doing my best to get through the damn day so why isn't that enough. why can't my best just be good enough?