I'm really sorry to hear that you've gone through this horrible experience with your siblings. It's shocking that they haven't acquainted themselves with your illness, particularly given that one of your parents also suffered from bipolar. Perhaps they're in denial because the whole issue is so painful, but really... to side with your ex, even to the extent of taking him on holiday... that's shameful.

How are you coping with this? I mean, do you have mechanisms and support in place to help you? I can't imagine how cut up you must be to have lost custody of your child. The illness itself can be devastating, the divorce, the family breakup... and that on top of it... you have my admiration. You're here, coherent, reaching out to others, self aware... Really, you should be proud of yourself. You're a survivor.

Hope you get okayed for chat soon. I'm sure you will find it helpful, and also that you'll be able to help others.

Look after yourself.