well i wouldent really call myslef a writter, more like i want to be a writer. i havent written a story in about five years. when i do even write these days ,it's mostly essays. but there mostly either about how much the world sucks or how much i hate myself. and about the list,well, when you'v been told your ugly or your stupid so many times, you really start to belive it. even when you try to tell yourslef that those things arent true. and no, i would never make up a list about every single flaw a person has . i would never intentianly hurt someone, so why do people consatantly do it too me! . i know, that sounds very whiney. but that's what i want to ask most of the people who have ever hurt me. well that last bit was slightly off topic to what i posted, sorry about that.