thanks for the support. I am doing better today. Lately i just want to be left alone but there is always someone around. i am working on going back to school but the only college that is near by and has a BSW program in an hour from me . in a place where i was raced for part of my life. i can't find any other place that is within an hour and has that major. the next closes is 2hours away. i have enough problems commuting and doing HW with 1 hour i can't imagine 2. i wish i would just sleep and never wake up ever again. i have used alot of coping skills in the past but they are just bandaids. nothing really helps me. thanks again for your replys.