I'm SO sorry others are going through the same thing. I know that almost all of us go through it at some point, but, wow, it just sucks.

I woke up today thinking *maybe* he would have e-mailed me back last night, but he didn't. He almost always e-mails around 2 on Sunday if I'm waiting for an e-mail, so MAYBE...

I just wish he'd be open about his schedule. Like "I almost never check voice mails/e-mails between when I leave work on Friday and 2pm on Sunday". If that's the case, and I KNOW it, it would save me from a spiral. He always tells me if he's going to be gone for the weekend and that helps.

The other thing is, for some reason, I asked him at the end of session on Friday if we would be friends if we had met in real life (because I was feeling so crazy, and wondered if T would be friends with someone like me). I have asked him that before, and he has always answered in the affirmative...and once he volunteered out of nowhere that if we knew each other in real life, he would probably be kind of selfish with me and want more of my time than he could have. When I asked him on Friday, he said "Yeah, I think so". And I said "you THINK so?" and he said "oh...yes, I'm sure we would be". But that "think so" keeps echoing in my head. I know he was probably distracted, or not thinking about the question, or whatever...but I FEEL like he had finally reached a point of "wow, I am SO SICK of tree" and wishing I would just disappear.

And he disappeared instead.