Solitiude is something we all need but so is the warmth of having loved ones around us. Being lonely is something (I think) we all experience but to constantly be lonely and alone when not our choice, is just plain awful, in my opinion.

I'm facing these feelings too as my mother just passed away and I was her sole caregiver for 5 & 1/2 yrs. I had put my life on "hold" while caring for her, left my job, put my home in storage and didn't realize that when all this would someday end, I would have to be building my life from scratch and doing it all alone. I have friends that have consoled me but when the door shuts behind them, I've got only me and right now, this feels crippling. I'm trying to see me way out of these feelings and have just started taking St. Johns wort. Prescribed anti depressants don't work for me, they adversly work, making me feel worse. It will be 5 weeks since my mother passed, this Wed. and though I don't feel ready, I'm desperately lonely and have decided to start looking for a part time job...anything for now. I need to feel responsible and commited to something other than my sorrow so I will start looking for work, in an attempt to feel part of something bigger than myself, if that makes sense.

I know how you feel and I don't want to believe that lonlieness is something that's bigger than our choice to be embraced and feel connected with others. It's all very, very scarey, I know how you feel. I wish you love in your life.