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Old Mar 06, 2011, 08:38 AM
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Originally Posted by mixedup_emotions View Post
I'm working towards getting back to writing my book....and one topic was something that I wanted to share here and get some different perspectives and feedback on.

Here's the initial summary of what I wrote:

"The idea of admitting my secrets produces such shame and leaves me too vulnerable to attack by others. A high sensitivity emerges from such disclosures, and helps elicit such an incredible array of emotions. Fear of judgment, rejection, lonliness. Shame, embarrassment, disappointment. Admitting the secrets also adds a layer of guilt and betrayal. Admission also helps the events seem more real. If it's only real in my own mind and body, does it exist? Only to me and those involved. Once the secrets are revealed, you can never, ever, ever take them back. The risks seem so huge to the one carrying them. To me."

This takes me back to group T...and how I have such a difficult time sharing in group.....
thanks for sharing this mue.i understand a little more why group is so hard for you now..i also fear that speaking the secrets also makes them to real for me.i often live by the motto better left unsaid
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Thanks for this!
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