(((((((((( embracinglife ))))))))))

i am so glad to hear you are beginning to work in therapy to start to heal those scars of the past.

It could very well be that your mom sees your dad as better, especially if there are no children left in the home for him to abuse. That doesn't negate the fact that he compromised your boundaries to make you feel like a nothing so much of the time.

I think sometimes the emotional and psychological trauma we experience is greater than the physical trauma. It is harder I think to get past the emotional trauma because you encounter it when you go home to visit. That feels like a slap in the face, that you cannot get over by yourself. Those wounds run deep, and it is difficult to NOT think of yourself as somehow flawed. You are NOT flawed. You are reacting to something that should not even be an issue, IF your father had changed he would not treat you like he has your whole life.

Sending you gentle hugs, positive thoughts, and prayers to help you heal.

Jewels