Huh? I want to understand the problem, but there's not really enough here to go on. What are your symptoms? What do you need to do to help yourself right now?

What about you? I sense you feel that taking more meds is somehow a bad thing. Your brain is begging you to feed it meds so it will work right. I had the same problem, I didn't want to take the meds. I was scared. But I'm not scared now. I know they help. They will help you too. Maybe you should ask a doctor before changing doses though.