Hi jpny,

I am so sorry you are feeling so cruddy. I hate depression, it is so dark and painful. Therapy can work, but sometimes you need the right medication to help you get thru therapy. It took several medication attempts before I found one that helped. Keep fighting, don't give up. There is an answer for you, it's just got to be the right combo of T and meds. Post often here as well, the people here are really supportive and can give positive feedback.