I took two trips to a local park this weekend to try to just "get away" for a while. It didn't really help. My sister is bipolar also and is going to bring me over an adavan (sp?) to see if it helps with my constant anxiety and irritability. If it works, I am going to see if my pdoc will give me some. I can't stand this worked up feeling inside. I have tried going for walks, working out with the Wii, reading, doing puzzles, playing video games, cleaning the house.....nothing is working and I feel like I am absolutely going to freaking lose it any time now.
My husband has been so patient with me and has been there to cuddle when I need it. He has put up with my buzzing my hair off, then dying it golden blonde. He is putting up with my wishy-washy attitude towards everything and is just being wonderful. Thank God!

Anyways, I just needed to vent because I don't know what else to do except get it all out like spewing it out......blah!!!!