I'm glad you're taking steps to help get yourself to a healthy place. And it really helps to have a supportive partner. I'm really glad to hear that!

Be cautious with those "as needed" anti anxiety medications. When I took them, I built up a tolerance real fast, and had to keep taking more of them. I use marijuana now, because it works better for me. I even have a medical license to do it (California rules)!

So do take the meds, but just be careful. Anyway, hope you can find some more distractions to keep yourself occupied. And lean on that man of yours, he can hold you up for a while.