Soon as I woke up I was pissed off. Just the sound of my mom’s voice instantly set me off. She was nagging me and being annoying. Then we had to go to church which is a waste of my time. I hated that there was a kid’s choir and they sounded horrible. I hated the people that sat around me. I hate how ignorant and stupid people are, and how they are so easy to trick. I am always stuck after church because my parents sit around and talk to people. I hate it because I just want to get out of there as quick as possible. Finally got home and I played some games on my computer and got really mad because I kept dying, then I had to go into work for an hour and deal with all those people. After that I got home and shot the basketball for a while and got mad because I wasn’t making enough of my shots. I got so worked up that my whole body is trembling right now, and I feel physically weak and tired.

Usually I sit and let these thoughts stew in my head, but today I wanted to try and write it out. I hate feeling like this, but it is just like the snowball effect. Soon as I get mad it just keeps getting worse. I treat other people like crap and I am disinterested in everything they say. Today I was so mad I was on the verge of getting violent, but I can always keep from doing it. I just want to take my frustration out on something but nothing ever works. This does not happen a lot, just when a lot of negative gets built up inside me, or if I have to do something I don’t want to.