I am so confused here. I've come across CBT before and tried to use it. My therapist is wanting to start me on it, and I just attended the live chat about it. At the moment I'm in a depressive state after a manic state. Slow cycling.

So, when I'm looking for the negative thoughts that must exist, I'm having some trouble.

While physically and chemically, I'm depressed right now, over the years my thoughts have become extremely muddy. I carry some things with me from each state, and some of them are quite contradictory.

The more I think about it, the more I'm sure I don't have a clue what I believe about myself. It as if, whatever negative thoughts are there (which I'm currently responding to emotionally), they're hiding behind the memory of the thoughts I've had previously, when I was elated.

I'm not even sure that makes sense, but that's how it seems.

Does this strike a chord with anyone out there?