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Originally Posted by mixedup_emotions
Admission also helps the events seem more real. If it's only real in my own mind and body, does it exist? Only to me and those involved. Once the secrets are revealed, you can never, ever, ever take them back.
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THIS is something I am really struggling with right now. Thank you for putting words around it for me.
I've been dissociating a lot, and aware of it, and I HATE it so much, because it's a reminder of what I had to do to survive. And that reminds me of the stories, and the fact that T knows them and....aaaaaack. Spiral city. It's just so freaking REAL.
Sometimes I think the "real" is good - it's solid, there is a beginning and and end to it, it's not this thing floating around in my head with no borders around it. Sometimes, I'm not so sure.
Thanks for sharing, MUE
