Hi everyone,

I've been diagnosed with anxiety a few times, also OCD, but the OCD sort of comes and goes. A psychiatrist I saw last summer said that I was depressed also. At the time I didn't believe it, but now I do. Anyway, I am some fun combination of the three.

I took SSRIs for a couple of years but went off them a few months ago because of side effects. I miss them now. I should probably go back. Partly I don't because it might be problematic for my current job, which is such that I would have to report mental health treatment. Mainly I really just can't bear the thought of having to go through my whole stupid story again. (I've moved a lot on the past few years so I've had to change doctors several times.)

Really I think I should just be able to manage myself. I am working towards getting out of the situations that I don't like with regard to work and home. I am trying to start my own business so I can have more control and not feel trapped and panicky. But there's so much effort associated with all that, and no way to even estimate the probability of success, never mind guarantee it. Mostly I try to just keep my head down and try to put one foot in front of the other. But as you guys know, it's hard.

Anyway, hi.

Thea