Hopefor; What I mean by I am alone is that I am alone. Yes, I do have 'My love' and I will with her soon.
But, why I feel alone is that, a while back, I pushed, or rather shoved, everyone away from me. I made it to where I was alone, just so I could have a few moments to think clearly. Everyone was always with me. Around me. Near me, in one form or another. I just needed, wanted, space from everyone and everything at that moment in time. But now, I do not wish to be alone and I had pushed my love so far from me, that she could not possibly reach me. So now, I am working to pull her back in, so we both are not alone.
Though, at the moment, I am alone.