Hi (((((((lavie)))))))),

I can't add much to the stellar list of suggestions and strategies here, and I would like to applaud them all--such a wealth of empathy, creativity, and intelligence, all packed into one thread by amazing, thoughtful folks. I also would like to second lastyearisblank's idea about getting yourself out there creatively, perhaps getting more work into galleries, or showcasing work with which you'd be willing to part at an art fair. A website would be a great idea in that capacity as well, and a free one can be put up in a matter of minutes. Creativity is so incredibly soothing, which is something I'm aware most or all know! Reasonable amounts of daily progress on chosen projects may offer comfort and accomplishment, and then putting the work on view for public appreciation or sale potentially offers reward, too...did I put a pun in there? Sorry!

missbelle's right...give the sloppy housemate the heave-ho. If you take on future housemates, draw up a livability contract about both common and private areas, with eviction clauses for noncompliance. Don't make it too detailed, use very plain language, and request that it's read and signed in your presence.

You are a very courageous person, as far as I'm concerned, lavie...I admire your candor, perseverance, and intelligence, as evidenced in this thread, and everywhere else I've had the pleasure to come in contact with you on this site. Step by step, you will build the life you desire, from what you have at hand, and what you generate during that process. I have faith in you, lavie, as do so many others here.

Sending you heaps of hugs and positive feelings and thoughts.



P.S. I too like lastyearisblank's leaf caught in the stream analogy.

P.P.S. I know I've said it, but I really appreciate all the posts here also.