Sunrise, it sounds so hard to have to sit with all these doubts and worries about T. You always strike me as being very mature and measured, and secure in your attachment with T, so if you are anxious then I think it's definitely a situation in which most of us would be anxious. It sounds like this (organisation, scheduling) is your T's 'weak spot' and he expects his clients to radically accept that. But I think it's still important to address all the concerns you have with him. I hope he can reassure you

I don't know how long it takes to get an appointment, because I have a set appointment. She only works in private practice two days a week. The only time I've ever asked for an extra appointment (about a month ago) she came in specially to do it.