Oh sweetie I thought this was MY can of worms!! I feel SOOOO much like you...I can't have children either. We tried for almost 6 years, nothing. Now with abilify and especially methotrexate, we Have to use protection. Besides now with RA, I'm not sure I could even Handle a baby =( I feel like a peri-woman...can't even give life, carry it or anything. At one point I was so jealous of my sisters--having children at such a young age (compared to me anyway), without the fathers around...and the one who didn't even want one. My little brother is also expecting with his gf, cousins have babies, friends....*deep breath*

You are not alone in these feelings, I understand only too well. {{{{{{{Lexi}}}}}}}