Hi Artie,
I'm glad that you've managed not to harm yourself... I know that can be very hard at times. Here's one way of looking at it... if you did do something to hurt yourself, you would be giving the power to someone else, someone who wished you harm or treated you badly. Why give them that power, or that satisfaction? You are your own person. You don't have to believe what anyone else says about you, you have to discover yourself.

You can do this. You are still here, after all.