thanks everyone for ur support. Its very comforting to know Im not alone feeling like this, I got a p/t job today! Im not sure if its gonna be enough to pay the bills, but i will find out, and atleast it will get me out of the house. Im also gonna start herbalife, my friend is a distributor for it, and has gotten amaxing results. Ive gained a lot of weight from some bipolar meds, mainly zyprexa. as far as exercise, I cant afford a gym membership and its awfully cold outside, but on the days where its bearable I go for a walk, Im also doing a workbook from Iylana vanzant called "living thru the meantime" thats helping me a ton.Its helping me understand myself and my views on life and love. Its my journey to self discovery and is giving me something to do , so the past few days havent been so overwheliming. I go back ot the pdoc on friday and hope to have good news to tell her ( maybe the effexor is finally kickin in!) and I go see my T tomorow which I always look forward to, she rocks! thanks again everyone!
Beth