thanks, everyone. Fool - you are very right. It shows in all situations. Even when I receive compliments, I respond usually with sarcasm. I know it isn't healthy. I guess my self image is so low I just hate hearing people say nice things about me. So I bring the brunt of the joke on myself.

And yes, if something bad happens, I typically respond with a joke which I also know isn't healthy. My brother does the same thing and so does my sister to a point. My dad is very emotionally closed off so none of us really know how to express our feelings. Our mom has gotten better but is still under the mindset that she doesn't let people know any pain she's going through. I guess it's continued through us. But in a way it kind of forces me to be the strong one. Because any time anything bad happens, I'm the one to brighten the mood. So....who knows. I enjoy being that person who lightens the tension but, at the same time, it would be nice if I could force myself to show externally how I'm feeling internally.

Guess that's why I'm on this site, huh?