I told T a big big secret that others didn't want told. Now they are really upset at me--mad--spitting mad is more like it. won't even attempt to communicate.

Besides that, Pdoc is adjusting meds and I am more depressed than I've been in a long time. Just want to quit everything, cocoon and let whoever do whatever. I'm tired of it all. See Pdoc tomorrow and T on Monday--really don't want to wait that long to see T again. Just saw her yesterday.

WHY did I go and open yet another can of worms??? I have really blown it this time. Don't think this will be an easy one to rectify. It feels like a dark poison cloud around me and in my whole being. D**N!!! Why'd I do that???