Hi Umbral Seraph. I really understand about avoiding things due to anxiety and then feeling crappy about myself afterwards. It's great you're going to have the opportunity to go to another meeting this week. I have often found that the thought of doing something can be worse than actually doing it. So it really can be worth pushing ourselves to give it a go. Plus, it always feels so good afterwards!
I hope you're able to make it to the next meeting and that it goes well! Good luck!!