I can't find a reason to live anymore, my mother abandoned me for a drug addict, my sister hates me cause I hate my mom so she doesn't treat me like a little brother anymore, I wake at 3:30 AM every day, tried all the time.

I wait in the cold for hours so I can go to school in my old district, I barley have anyone on my side, I hate living I just want to die in my sleep.
Why can't I???

I feel anger all the time, the most little things piss me off, I cry myself to sleep almost all the time.

I want to be at peace but it seems like I can't have that either.