Hi and Welcome to PC ! We are here for you ! I well remember the days of a very active 4 yr old, and panic mode being in high gear ! Also the "colon cleansing" issue ! YUCK ! My 4 yr old is now 27 yrs old, and I have been panic free just shy of 16 years ! Learning the techniques already mentioned will help you I am sure. They certainly did me ! I think having a sick child - then feeling ill yourself, you are more prone to being stressed. Time for a break from wondering if you will survive panic attacks and focus on getting physically well. Also, if I might ask - do you take the Klonopin on a regular basis - or as needed?