Well i have been purge free for about three weeks and today i gave in. I have gained 10 pounds and now that wouldnt be scary to me if i was in the 100's but im in the 200's. I now weigh 235 pound insead of 225. That scared me to death. I hate the food in my house even ramen noodles scare me. I need to loose 40 lbs by feb 38. i need to get into the 100's when i reach 150 i will be happy. I know i will because i was at the verge of 300 pounds and being down into a normal weight range would be heaven.

I must not eat for the rest of the day. i had this carnation breakfast crap go through my system allready so no more food. that should carry me through the rest of the day. I do not want to gain anymore weight. i want to loose, not gain.