Wow! You guys are something else. Thank you all for letting me vent. I appreciate the well wishes Larfu. They found their way to me. I am so sorry to hear greylove that you have experiences som of the same side effects. I too hope you can continue to be active on PC. I think that is an underlying fear for me too. And like you it is very important me. I am so grateful for all the support and sharing.

I waited until it was 9am and the doc's office was open. I have an appointment on Friday. Then I focused on getting my head straight. I just finished doing a ceremony and smudge. It has helped to settle me down and let go of my fears.

Your idea Kymaro to divide the dose sounds very logical. I will suggest it to the GP. He has no idea so no doubt he will go along with it. He is so.... whatever. I won't let myself get started up again on him! His reaction to my telling him I was still having anxiety attacks was to send me for a lung test. No clue that guy and no option for a switch unless he moves on. Of course that is always a good possiblity since he is the 3rd or 4th replacement in less than 3 years. It is what it is. Thanks also for the link to the mayo clinic Kymaro. I will check it out for sure.

I am not sure I can let a pdoc manage the meds as much as that makes total sense. They are so booked up it would be months between visits. Not very good in the early stages I would imagine.

I don't take any other meds except to treat my hypo-thyroidism. I thought it wiser to wait to see how I responded to the Lamictal so I wouldn't get any side effects confused. Not that I have been offered anything.

Big huges to everyone who has taken the time to help me with this. I couldn't do it without you. Blessing to each and everyone of you.