Im 30 about to turn 31 and in the past few months I have been showing signs of early schizophrenia. I have been diagnosed with a depersonalization disoder due to some things that happened to me as a child. I was wondering if its possible that that disorder could cause schizophrenia or if maybe the depersonalization is just getting worse for some reason. I feel like Im losing my mind and what makes it worse is that I have small children and Im afraid Im going to be unable to care for them. Right now my parents are taking care of them half the time because Im getting to where I cant function some days. I feel like a bad mom, but I cant help what is going on inside my head. Its like no matter how much I tell myself that what is happening my head isnt real, I cant seem to be convinced. I just need someone to talk to. Im about to start seeing a new therapist after being out of therapy for a couple of years and Im nervous about it. I just really need some support from people who know what its like. My family can only do so much. I mean they havent had to deal first hand with the things I have had to deal with, so they cant empathise with me.