ohhhhh hun ((((((felineheart))))) 1st of all, be proud of yourself for not purging until christmas and most importantly for losing the weight the HEALTHY weight. if you are at a good weight now and want to maintain it though you have to keep doing the things you did to get to this point, ie. healthy & balanced diet, exercise, talking to a therapist might be a very good idea (you mentioned you'd see one soon). it's a lifestyle change not just about dropping pounds right? your in-laws have their own issues to deal w/ but you don't have to be like them or even feel guilty for choosing a healhty lifestyle. I know that the years add up w/ having an ed, but I honestly believe that you CAN make it through this. it's difficult but as you have already proven to yourself it can be done to take small steps and see great results.

don't be too hard for slipping up on christmas, I had a really tough time w/ the holidays, all the food was overwhelming along w/ social obligations. but I also know myself and know which kind of situations and food trigger me.. could you maybe have the next get together at your place and prepare the food, making sure to have things you feel comfortable with? If they want your company I'm sure they can surivive not having their 'food fests' occasionally and maybe even learning about new recipes, ideas from you... if you feel comfortable enough making the food and stuff. also, you don't have to go to these things, if you know it'll trigger you. things like christmas are kind of inevitable but for ex. you could say you don't like sports for this upcoming event....

I know they're part of your family know but you also have to remember that you CAN distance yourself from triggering situations and that you have a right to do so. you can spend time w/ them in other ways. you can't change their lifestyles but you can take charge of your own. I really hope you will be okay.....