Okay... I guess I will share about my difficult morning. I am still a little off but it is getting calmer as the day goes on. I started a post yesterday to ask to help me figure out a rash that is been aggravated lately. I am concerned it has to do with the Lamictal. I had a meltdown about it this morning. I just got so overwhelmed I couldn't think straight. People were so kind and helpful to me and even put up with some of my irrational ranting.

I knew I needed to spend some time working my way back to a calmer place. I was going to try to meditate of try to enter into mindlessness. Even a walked didn't feel like enough. I feared I would have been crying and sobbing my way down the road.

I opted to have a ceremony and smudge (wash myself in the smoke of sage and cedar). I played the hand drum until I had no more songs to sing. Then I prayed in the four directions. Over an hour had passed before I was finished. It helped alot to allow me to let go of my worries and fears and to find my centre again. I was still a bit shacky but much better now.

Once again the message was not to project into the future but to take it one baby step forward at a time. I think I am going to be faced with that challenge more then a few times this week. Oh geesh... there I go again projecting trouble.

A work in progress. Have a blessed day. I am celebrating our growth together. YAH US!!!

I need another shower... 3rd so far today... I am all clammy these days and it is driving me batty. I think I well go for a walk. I still need to have some lunch first. I feel like I am running behind but pushing that aside and deciding I am in sync with what I am meant to be doing. Self care day.